Well, when I started this blog I thought I would have more spare time to write. However, I have been working in W-S with my dad for the last 3 weeks which means almost 2.5 hours of my day are spent in the truck. Hence the reason that my week in my original post has turned into 3 weeks.
I had manifold reasons for leaving Facebook to start a blog. Just a few of which I will cover here tonight. I am not in any way saying that I think Fb is evil, in fact I think it is a great way for people to connect and share their lives. However for me having a Fb page posed more opportunities to stumble than I needed to put in front of myself.
First of all having a page provided me with an opportunity for pride to take over and be manifest. I mean who puts an ugly picture of themselves up on Fb? (Well there was that one picture with the 70's hair and glasses) We all tend to paint ourselves in the best light possible from what we say to the pictures we post. We desire for people to think we are funny, intelligent, beautiful/handsome, and successful. It is almost like a constant online high school reunion. I just got tired of playing the game. I am a saint dwelling in a tent of depraved flesh which lends itself to all kinds of vices and sin. So who am I kidding acting like I have it all together. I am in desperate need of Grace daily and I didn't feel like that is what I was portraying on Fb. So in reality I was maintaining a "face" page of what I wanted people to see hoping they would like me. What I have known for about 4 years and has really began to register is it doesn't matter whether you like me, the God of the universe loved me enough to sacrifice His Son on my behalf. So He evidently places a high value on me....which is a mystery.
Secondly as a man who struggles with the sin of lust (as most men do whether they are truthful enough to own up to it or not is another issue) I didn't need the provision for the flesh to fulfill its lust. I ain't hatin' on anyone in particular on Fb, but some women make it hard on men who desire to live Godly lives when they post some of the pictures that they post. I know you can say that "I don't have to look at them" and you are right so I got off Fb. This doesn't even take into account the adds that pop up on the right side of the page constantly. Just too much temptation for me and my flesh is weak.
The last reason I will cover tonight (even though there are a few more) for the sake of time is time. It was just too easy for me to come in from work (or if I was home as I am unemployed) and feel like I needed to look at all my friend's status updates from that present time to the last time I was online. So I could spend anywhere from 20 min. a day to an hour plus of cumulative time farting around on Fb. Many of those days I had spent 5 minutes or less in the Word or prayer with the God who gave SO much on my behalf. So my priorities were seriously out of whack, and Fb only provided one more thing to steal my affections from the One who deserves them most. Not to say I have my priorities all ironed out since leaving Fb, but I have one less trivial (temporal) thing vying for the time of the essential (eternal) things in my life.
As I continue this blog I hope to be much more open and honest about my struggles as a believer and as a man trying to walk with the Lord in this messed up world. I just need to get my wife's permission first as I tend to let it all hang out sometimes without worrying about the consequences or how what I say affects her. I feel that a blog is a much better place to do that than on Fb. I so long to be over posing, and have for the last 4 years since God saved me out my sin and the life of a huge lie. I just long to be REAL and hope that the world sees a whole lot more of Christ in my life, and a whole lot less of me or who my foolish pride wants you to imagine me to be...
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